It’s Been Awhile

[elietalksalot]

the sun hangs low but still swelters
like a burning thought u cant help let linger
california summers hang over until winter
like this hang over ive been nursing forever

forever.

forever.

forever is a commitment
one that i’m not sure i can make

forever in debt to this work
forever in debt to please

is this really what life is supposed to be
monotonous routines and even more boring people

the only thing i do here is walk
walk
walk until my legs give out
in a desperate attempt to enjoy this town
and it works for a short while
until i get sucked into the routine of life again

im not necessarily depressed or apathetic
i have energy that i want to let out
but i don’t think this is the right place for me to
sprout
my aspirations